Spring.
A time of renewal. A time of birds chirping joyfully, colorful flowers budding happily, and green grasses peeking out and stretching upward for a friendly handshake with the blue sky after a long winter's hibernation...
That's what they say, anyway. For those of us in the far north, the beauty of springtime bloom doesn't come until we are well into summer. For us, spring is not a time of beauty, but a time of promise. Spring is in the air, but nowhere else. It's a time of warmer temperatures that bring the world out of the deep freeze and give us hope that sunny, colorful, dry days are just around the corner. The spring that now graces my backyard shows few signs of life except for the occasional squirrel scampering excitedly from tree to tree as if he's just realized that he's happened upon the season's first food supplies while all other creatures are still snuggled up in their beds. Our trees stand under the gray sky like withered 200-year-old men, gnarled, crooked, gaunt, weathered by a harsh life. They may have deep roots, but they sway in the wind, unsteady and tired. Bushes and shrubs sit and wait impatiently in burlap sacks like little children in straight jackets, waiting for the day when they will be freed and can burst forth with new growth, racing each other to see who can reach the highest over their few shorts months of glory. The snow melts more each day, and the resulting puddles and streams have made our yard with all its brown wilted grass into a smelly, muddy marsh. We hold our breath and watch the black, barren fields, praying the floodwaters water won't rise over the dikes this year. No, for us spring is not a time of beauty, but a time of promise.
We all feel the anticipation. As I watch the grass appear more each day, inch by hard-earned inch, I get the sense of seeing a long-lost friend approaching in the distance; with each step we come closer to each other mounts the anticipation of the joyful times we will spend together again.
This year as I look out at our changing landscape, I'm struck by the similarities of the seasons of our world and the seasons of our soul. We have all experienced in life a frosty dormancy, a deep-freeze that reaches to our core when although the sun is shining, it's not welcoming, and although the world holds beauty, it inspires you only to hide yourself away. And then, at long last, the air starts to warm, and we breathe a sigh of relief that life will be beautiful once again. We expect to jump from deep winter to full bloom like we skip through pages in a book. But that's not possible. To get to the beauty of spring, we must go through the thaw. It's muddy, it's sticky, it's smelly, it's mucky. This is the time when the snow turns to water and we are flooded, when everything that was held at bay by the frigid cold melts and penetrates our souls. The skies are gray, there's little sign of life, and we wonder to ourselves if the floodwaters will put everything in jeopardy. We want to return to the deep freeze. It feels safer and more predictable. In the midst of the changes, we forget that those same waters going deep and penetrating everything are what feeds and pushes to the surface the beautiful life that we are so desperately waiting to see. Finally, the snows disappear...and we wait...and we wait...We see only little changes at first; a little bud of green...a lone robin pecking at a worm...the earth of flowerbeds upturned with high expectations...and we wait and watch….and then one day we look around and realize that full bloom has snuck up on us! The withered old trees look like kings in all their pomp, gloriously crowned in canopies of green. Flowers cheerfully wave from every corner. The smells and sounds of life fill the air. The days are long and glowing. Even the occasional thunderstorm is a welcome diversion, washing the dust away and giving the world a fresh start. The sunshine is warm on our face and invites us to go out and become a part of the beauty. Life is as it should be. And as we lay in the deep grass and allow the fresh air to fill us, to lift us up, we know that Fall may come again, and Winter too. But then there is always......
Spring.